I have lost my sense of hope.
I have lost my spontaneity.
I have lost my friends.
I have failed in love and relationships.
I have failed in the one thing I thought I was good at.
I have failed in plans.
I have failed myself.
I am nothing but a lonely drone, working for no one.
Unable to be hired.
Unable to support myself.
Unable.
I have given up on my dreams.
I have given up on my wonder.
I have given up on crossed fingers and wishing for you at 11:11.
I have given up myself to too many who have since rejected me.
I need to hit rock bottom to get my inspiration back, I need to hit rock bottom to feel alive just one more time.
1 comment:
you never want to hit rock bottom, trust me Ive been there and it is hell. I love you Nikki, you are an amazing writer, and an awesome friend. you have never lost anyone, they lost you.one day you will be surprised by how much you are able to do for your self, one step at a time.
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