I have lost my sense of hope.
I have lost my spontaneity.
I have lost my friends.
I have failed in love and relationships.
I have failed in the one thing I thought I was good at.
I have failed in plans.
I have failed myself.
I am nothing but a lonely drone, working for no one.
Unable to be hired.
Unable to support myself.
Unable.
I have given up on my dreams.
I have given up on my wonder.
I have given up on crossed fingers and wishing for you at 11:11.
I have given up myself to too many who have since rejected me.
I need to hit rock bottom to get my inspiration back, I need to hit rock bottom to feel alive just one more time.
